Someone to look after you

I am realizing that no matter what I do or i am able to do I am looking for a person that I feel he can protect me, probably because I didnt have my dad at home or nowhere close where I could feel he is protecting me, he cared of course and he loves me I know but he wasnt there to protect the house, to take decisions to make me feel relax,  everytime i met someone I can really fast say whether he is able to give me that, peace and it isnt in the sense of me doing nothing and just lay back and enjoy life while he takes care of me,  i am not like that I will never be that person however I am looking for that feeling that sometimes i just dont need to take the decisions, i can just follow him and I will love to follow someone and not being followed,  I can be a leader outside in the real world, I can fight against believes  and I know that I am perfectly able to live by myself however I dream to have that a person that take care a person that wants to share his life with someone like me with the goods and bads and be my teammate but also my protector and I just havent found that and I am in no hurry, I am learning things everyday and I am trying to be a better me even if sometimes itss just really hard to do.

I want to feel that I am part of something that wants me there ...

Un nuevo año, benvenuto 2012!

Sometimes in life there are good moments and sometimes not so good, but at the end the most important thing is that we are still alive, we are here, no matter how many mistakes we did in the past, how many wrong paths we took or follow, all of those have taken us right here where we are now and has made us the person we are bad or good, right or wrong, we are alwasy able to change it, to write our own story, to change th course of our destiny and to live!

Some moments are harder than others, some are absolutely magic that no words can explain them, this year I have had many of them, I have walked around different paths, and met wonderful walkers like me that has push me to dream over an over again, but this is my life, the life I can decide how to live, the one that has bringing me back to my country because I have still something to do here, and i am realizing that every day i am here!, I have taken the right decision, and I will enjoy every day i am wherever I am meant to be!. But I am still a dreamer, and I will fight to reach this coming one, and that keeps me smiling but whether that happends soon or later I will keep smiling for all the blessing I am receiving and I will work hard to find my way, the path that fulfills me and hopefully that helps me help others, share my love and my life with other human beings around...

GRazie! grazie for a year full of experiences, learnings and moments, thanks to my angel that has taken care of me and for the life to teach me something everyday and has helped me to train my mind into a more positive one!... This is my way, this is my path, this is my life

Dear diary... here we go again!