I ve got the best of both worlds ...

DIARY
Well well well... I have quite a stressful, ineresting weeks .. I have finally work 100% in the company that me and some friends decided to open and I am so excited, nervious, stress, relax.. I actually dont even know how many feelings I have towards this, the only thing I really know is that my life has improved and I feel totally muchhh better than before.

About my personal emotional life.. well some things happened and I did get angry, sad and all those disturbed emotions that I knew it will come but I didint actually react as bad as I could have and I think I made some choices changed some attitudes, said some things and put everything in its real importance and I can say that I've got the best of both worlds!! I get to keep a great friend that I love and get the best part of him that is being a friend that anyone could say "is he ur bf?" ( as it happened this weekend) coz we have such a cool friendship where I get to bother him and viceversa and we dont dissapoint or invade the personal space of the other so.. great!!

On the other hands I am improving myself and I think I will keep on this track .. starting with the excitement of learning sooo many things, yoga, a whole 2 weeks of tibetian budism, a certificate in massage therapy, some mkt books and so on.. soo I am so happy and I thanks the world for this opportunity ...

YEa babe!! Ive got the best of both worlds!! =)

Its nothing...

Dear Diary:

I kind a get some things today , YOu know I asked a friend for some help to learn something and I was really hoping he ll agree.. because it wasnt big deal and I just really like to spend time with him,he is sometimes interesting, funny and nice but I just realized that he was gonna say no and inside him he really wasnt interested to help and that really make me sad, I dont know if it was because of something I used to do or did or want to do sometimes but I was just ... shocked I guess
I understand that sometimes you just dont have time or dont really feel like doing something , but I also know that when you care about someone you just try, I mean everything is possible when you really want it and this wasnt really a hard thing , I realized that I have made the right choice coz if he really couldnt say yes to this, he wouldnt definetely say yes to anything harder than it and It made me realize where I am in his life and I had gotten it all wrong, coz you know I really could lose many things for him and his friendship mean alot to me but ... is this real? ... I am just dissappointed I guess .. and a little bit sad... I guess sometimes we just dont get what we expect or want... which doesnt make anyone better or worse just sometimes you realize who are you for someone, and that is ok. JUst my night is a little bit coudy tonight, but I am sure that tomorrow will be suny again ..


Thanks for listening me diary, I just sometimes made stories on my head and believe that there are things or feelings where there are none , and that is all about growing up... =)

kisses !!

Good night