Dear Diary,
I came back , well as u know i have some days of lets say " being free" dont know how to take it jaaja i have a mix of feelings between happiness, anxiety, fear, love, excitement that i cant describe in detail what is thati feel, iam sure i want to be with him, to have family, however maybe is just my selfish part that is trying to scape or to enjoy the last days of being single as if something was going to change... nothing is going to change ..
Last week at the course we learnt about the different parts of the love ,the different periods of it , it was really interesting knowing my self as a mixof the first, second and even third, but still fighting for a small part of the first that i dont even know if i want to change .. that sucks coz i hate as i have written it before the consequences but i dont know if i want ot change it ...
The doctor also said " the love and the decision to get married and being with one person is a decision made by the mind and the brain not by the hearth .. interesting ehh
I guess i should do only what i like to not have the wrong consequences that i dont like ... eyy that can be a good idea !!
YEaaaa !!
Thanks for listening to me Diary
