A journey to an unexpected destination

Dear Diary 

I didnt want to talk to you because everything looked so gray that I didint want to  write about it and then read it and find out that I was seeing the world in the wrong colour, You know this days I have cried a lot but I have also received the help of others and meet many other souls that have the same fears, dreams, curiosity for life that i havent felt alone for one moment! .  Also the people I ve met in the past has been there for me, supporting me, huging me and reminding me that I am not alone.

This is a hard time I am in the middle ofthe way without a defined path to follow, I know I should be excited and happy for what it comes in front of me but I just dont know what is the right thing to do or the right decision to take, I just know that I will put myself out there in the world and for some reason my hearth will lead my way.

There are people that arrive to your life and that you feel that you would like to have them around but for some reason is not the time or the place to be and you have to let it go but not in the way of a total separation but a light strong thread that will hold you both until the time and the place comes but I should be able to improve myself and keep enjoying the life and being positive about it by myself along the way .

I wish that decisions could be made now, that goals, expectations and actions could be made but I am sure that if there hasnt been done its because something better is in front of me and that I must keep working hard and smiling while this happens.

By now the only thing I can do is to enjoy! enjoy all the journey until the final destination comes! .

Sometimes you just got to do, what you got to do

DIARY:

Sometimes we keep looking for something that we will never find outside,

sometimes we dream of having something that you are not meant to have this life

Sometimes we forgot the reason why we are in this world

Sometimes we search for something that it doesnt exist.

Sometimes we are stock in our teenager days

Sometimes we must be strong in the consequences of our acts

Sometimes we just need to accept our reality and keep working

Sometimes we need to learn how to live happy with whatever we ´ve got

Sometimes is time to mature

Sometimes we just have to do what we are meant to do

This is one of those times.

1 Good bye, 1 C u later

Dear Diary:

U know how hard is to say good bye .... good bye to a nice feeling, to a good job, to a wrong belief and to a special person... but sometimes is the only way to grow, to move on, to accept, to grief and to be ready, ready to feel freedom, feel uniqueness, satisfaction and love.. ISnt is weird that sometimes we need to stop loving someone to start loving the rest of the world? .

Dont know if this is really true but sometimes loving that specifically person is not the answer, is not even a possibility and it just makes you tired, exhausted, stock. I know that Love can be wonderful when both people are wiling to risk it all, to risk their own balance in life, their own individual rules and be happy but when this is not there, the answer for the one that is stock is just to get rid of it.

I cant say that it doesnt hurt, it makes an empty sense of reality but at the end is the best thing to do ....

My little angel, I know u are with me all the time, hug me at night, smile to me in the morning, show me the path to go, the thoughts to think, the anxiety to overcome, the lovely world around me, with you next to me, everything is possible.

A Big kiss from the deepest place in my hearth to that special person that has changed it all inside, i wish you to be happy coz I know I will.

Good bye my love, see you later my friend.

Topic .... closed...

feeling... on the way to vanish

Life.... here I go again, thanks for letting me live w/ u

Bring it on!!! =)