Dear Diary
I have spent my weekend mainly at the budhist center, I have enjoyed an open day and also the wesak, as is the most important day at the Budhist calendar. I remember that exactly a year ago I start asking myself quesitons like: is this it? Why am I feeling empty? What is the purpose of life? I remember a professor told me that was a normal stage at this age. A year ago I was confused for many things, now I am still confused but is fewer matters, and that makes me feel much better. I found many of the answers I was looking on the Budhist religion and as u already know after India everything changed. This weekend I felt part of a community here, the center is quite small and you tend to see the same people in each event.
Yesterday was such an experience!, I used to be catholic and I was a strong one for many years being part of young associations and groups, but to be honest, this was completely different, maybe because the events have a different meaning: Yesterday 9 members of the community became "mitras" (friends) at the community, and it was special, its like a baptism but one you decide, you have decided to follow a specific path in your life.. it was strong and moving.
I will keep going as everytime I leave with something new, an answer and an explanation but also with many questions, this weekend I learnt 2 things:
a) Dont take your life personally ! , past mistakes, experiences, beliefs, thoughts, be here be now.
b) Craving comes from feelings, feelings created in your mind by contact with something.
The whole experience has been useful and calm for me, I sometimes tend to feel like I want to be everywhere, Like I am here but I would like to be there with friends or family and at some point that feeling makes me not able to enjoy 100% where I am or what I do.
Many more learnings to come
PS. I have vounteered myself to teach some spanish to get fundraising, lets see what happens, its not like my agenda is empty ! :P but I want to help the community.
I am not afraid of life and I will not be afraid of death , if i take out that fear I will enjoy my life even more.
Good day Diary
Me
