I ve got the best of both worlds ...

DIARY
Well well well... I have quite a stressful, ineresting weeks .. I have finally work 100% in the company that me and some friends decided to open and I am so excited, nervious, stress, relax.. I actually dont even know how many feelings I have towards this, the only thing I really know is that my life has improved and I feel totally muchhh better than before.

About my personal emotional life.. well some things happened and I did get angry, sad and all those disturbed emotions that I knew it will come but I didint actually react as bad as I could have and I think I made some choices changed some attitudes, said some things and put everything in its real importance and I can say that I've got the best of both worlds!! I get to keep a great friend that I love and get the best part of him that is being a friend that anyone could say "is he ur bf?" ( as it happened this weekend) coz we have such a cool friendship where I get to bother him and viceversa and we dont dissapoint or invade the personal space of the other so.. great!!

On the other hands I am improving myself and I think I will keep on this track .. starting with the excitement of learning sooo many things, yoga, a whole 2 weeks of tibetian budism, a certificate in massage therapy, some mkt books and so on.. soo I am so happy and I thanks the world for this opportunity ...

YEa babe!! Ive got the best of both worlds!! =)

Its nothing...

Dear Diary:

I kind a get some things today , YOu know I asked a friend for some help to learn something and I was really hoping he ll agree.. because it wasnt big deal and I just really like to spend time with him,he is sometimes interesting, funny and nice but I just realized that he was gonna say no and inside him he really wasnt interested to help and that really make me sad, I dont know if it was because of something I used to do or did or want to do sometimes but I was just ... shocked I guess
I understand that sometimes you just dont have time or dont really feel like doing something , but I also know that when you care about someone you just try, I mean everything is possible when you really want it and this wasnt really a hard thing , I realized that I have made the right choice coz if he really couldnt say yes to this, he wouldnt definetely say yes to anything harder than it and It made me realize where I am in his life and I had gotten it all wrong, coz you know I really could lose many things for him and his friendship mean alot to me but ... is this real? ... I am just dissappointed I guess .. and a little bit sad... I guess sometimes we just dont get what we expect or want... which doesnt make anyone better or worse just sometimes you realize who are you for someone, and that is ok. JUst my night is a little bit coudy tonight, but I am sure that tomorrow will be suny again ..


Thanks for listening me diary, I just sometimes made stories on my head and believe that there are things or feelings where there are none , and that is all about growing up... =)

kisses !!

Good night

Just thoughts ...

...The only way to fulfill what is empty is by realizing that is not emptiness is confusion what hurts, and have aclear mind helps to realize the beautiful life that is in front of you...

... Life is like a recipe, friends are like salt and pepper, actions the rest of the ingredients and a positive peaceful mental attitude the secret ingredient to make that recipe the most tasteful dish you´ve ever tried...

‎....Sometimes you just need to accept that life is not always as you wish it to be, but at the end those unpredictable situations are the best lectures for you, they make you grow, understand and accept.....

Someone like her

Dear Diary:

Well .. This week I ve meet this girl and I was talking about her of relationships, goals, religions, etc.. She ended up telling me that she is working on finding out the best way to deal with the fact that she is married and in love of someonelse that doesnt love her back.. I was quite shock .. couldnt really say anything... after a while she said: "Well... but dont worry the good part of all this is that I have married a wonderful person that has taught me many things, made me a better person and is somebody I can count on, he'll be there for me, he is funny, smart, cute and absolutely a great soul ... and well the person I am in love ,even if he doesnt feel the same, he is one of my best friends and that makes me very happy" I must say that I started to be a littke bit curious and asked her:" So is everything all right?" ... She said: "Everything will be better, I know something at least , I wanna be a good person to share life with for my husband and I wanna keep my love as a friend" ... Isnt that hard I asked? ... HEll YES!! she answered..being close to the person you love withouth being able to do anything is like wanting to talk and have no voice... it feel like a pain on the chest that doesnt let you breathe, but u know as I see things.. it can always be worst, and at some point the tag for people may not be the same for all life.. what I mean is that maybe some day I wont love that person anymore, or I will decide to follow my path alone but so far I think this is the best I can do, I know and I wished that I could change eveything just in one minute but that is unreal, what I can say is that I will try my best to make this work for me and for everyone as soon as posible, and well .. there are other things I need to focus now so this maybe the least of my worries now...

I was looking at her thinking: "should be really hard to be in that situation... but then I just hugged her... She started to cry, I knew how she felt and I couldnt do more than give her a hug and tell her "everything is going t be fine, you ll see... " ANd she smiled at me she said" Iknow.. I just hoped sometimes it will be faster"

AT the end ...

Everything happens dependently and the answer to change that is only on my side ...

Steps for a new life...

Every day just one step at a time

Well Diary

I am back and Here we comes... lets start thismind trainning ... u know that I keep thiking and thinking and I just cant stop the idea of my mind but I dont even know why I am thiking it again.. maybe because my mind got used to the idea but that idea is just making me act like a fool, yesterday I act like a total stranjger for me, I mean I was kind a sarcastic, rude and put some pressure on the conversations and request at a meeting with friends and it was because in my mind I didint know how to react and I just end up being someone I am not ... so lets train this!!=) I wanna be myself with my friends and I dont want to run away from any of them

So breath ..... I realized of it so is a good step now lets try to change it lets try to be more ourselves ok?


Day 1 Train...

Wake up early to do breakfast and be a nice person to share life with for macicko
Think positive, past is past, now the presetn and the present needs calm and tranquility
When this idea comes to your mind dont block it, just let it go but dont focus on it jut let it pass ..

LEts see how it goes..


ME