viernes, 29 de octubre de 2010

Its all about creativity



Dear Diary

I ve just read about this mother and her small daugther , the mom writes a blog about how she is teaching her daughter to learn at home and go one day a week to school.. I loved it !!, hope one day i will have the energy, excitement and patience to do it with mine.

I ve been at home for about 24 hours now, i am searching and searching about different topics for my international marketing class.. to be honest, I love it! , I love marketing, I love how the technology is changing it all, however I still believe that is all about creativity, enjoying, having fun and live 100%.

Looking through the window of my little room, I see the sun telling me good bye and I just can smile! , I remember things, situations, faces and i just know that there are a bunch of smiles waiting for me, thanks God!, is going good!! =)

"If tomorrow never comes, would she know how much i love her...". (Ronan Keating), listening this song I just can dream and fall in love! .. I have said it all, there is nothing else inside of me so I am free!!

Today is halloween, and thinking about whether to dress like a mexican doll or a wizard of oz, I think as mexican doll will be a better idea... I would have looked pretty mexican anyway in the wizard of oz outfit hahah ..

See u later diary!

Kisses




domingo, 24 de octubre de 2010

1 Good bye, 1 C u later


Dear Diary:

U know how hard is to say good bye .... good bye to a nice feeling, to a good job, to a wrong belief and to a special person... but sometimes is the only way to grow, to move on, to accept, to grief and to be ready, ready to feel freedom, feel uniqueness, satisfaction and love.. ISnt is weird that sometimes we need to stop loving someone to start loving the rest of the world? .



Dont know if this is really true but sometimes loving that specifically person is not the answer, is not even a possibility and it just makes you tired, exhausted, stock. I know that Love can be wonderful when both people are wiling to risk it all, to risk their own balance in life, their own individual rules and be happy but when this is not there, the answer for the one that is stock is just to get rid of it.

I cant say that it doesnt hurt, it makes an empty sense of reality but at the end is the best thing to do ....

My little angel, I know u are with me all the time, hug me at night, smile to me in the morning, show me the path to go, the thoughts to think, the anxiety to overcome, the lovely world around me, with you next to me, everything is possible.

A Big kiss from the deepest place in my hearth to that special person that has changed it all inside, i wish you to be happy coz I know I will.

Good bye my love, see you later my friend.

Topic .... closed...
feeling... on the way to vanish

Life.... here I go again, thanks for letting me live w/ u

Bring it on!!! =)

jueves, 21 de octubre de 2010

... Hard time...

How can I pretend to lie myself and try to go back to something that I dont really want.. What is it to make a decision based on fear of being alone, of not reaching a personal goal.

How to move on if your hearth is still beating for him?

How to forget you if I cant stop thinking about you, if when I am alone I just can remember and dream ?

How to wake up withouth this empty feeling in my hearth?

How to stop crying because I cant do anything to make you change your mind...

And the only answer I got is "..leave it and keep smiling, time will give me the answer and the confort in your hearth, dont go back to what you are sure you dont want, just based on the wrong reasons, dont hurt anyone else on the way and try to live happily by yourself... at the end. It cant be that bad, to end up alone."

God, be with me, stay here, sleep with me and hug me please, because I am not that strong, and because I am just a girl that still needs to grow to be able to focus ONLY in what you have given me, thanks God , thanks for all


martes, 19 de octubre de 2010

Noses


Dear Diary:

Have you realized how funny the life can be? , I just realized that in many moments of my life, when i get on the tube, I just cant stop smiling, there are so many things that make me laugh, for example ... Have you noticed the many different types of noses that exist in the world?.. I am so amazed with it and I get to love mine even more, I am kind a unique! =)

The huge long noses of the indian girls, the fat funny noses of the black guys, the really curve noses of the middle east guys, the egipcian Cleopatra noses of the northern africans, the small noses of some europeans, the long noses of the English and the funny noses like mine.

I love noses, the way they get red when is so cold, or the different they look when you put glasses on, the way they change with the years, the funny they look in an old guy, some noses can make a person look like a cartoon Amazing!... I think noses have life in themselves ...

Diary i am not drunk or anything It was just a funny nosy day lol!!

Good night !

lunes, 18 de octubre de 2010

What is the key?




Estoy enamorada de la persona que soy cuando estoy contigo, de la transformación que provocas en mi. Me pregunto podré serlo sin ti?



Dear Diary:
This was my last tweet couple of minutes ago, and its something that has been walking around my mind the whole day, and the question I ask my self today is .. why?

What is it in you, in the situation, in myself that makes me act like that?

  • Is it the way you react, a reaction that I love that your eyes can talk through your body and that shocks you and let me realize what is what you are feeling?
  • Is it the fact that I am not afraid of being crazy, of being me of exploting in your hands because I know that there is no way that you can take it wrong, taht you can judge me in that moment, that I just can be myself with you.. is that it?
  • Is it the excitement of not having you for real, is it the challenge that represents to convince you, to have you?
  • Or is it just me that allow myself to be in peace, to focus in only one place and one moment and just give myself to it, to whatever it is that I am doing in that moment with you...

And I leave with that questions in my mind in a way to find the key to be that person again even.... withouth you ..

I miss you , and I will probably miss you the rest of my life but I need to accept that there is nothing I can do and I got this life for a reason and maybe next one we will see again.


By the way diary, I love Autumn !its my favorite season! I love the way the trees look , the changing of coulours, the dry grass, the dry leaves on the floor, the sound they do when you step on them, the HOPE, for me ... Autumn represents hope, and I live with it ...



sábado, 16 de octubre de 2010

Welcome Home London


Welcome Home London!

Ive been here for almost a month! Unbelievable! times just goes so fast, But when it comes to forget someone, take out a feelings that hurts, thoughts of feeling betrayed, lyied, humilliated and stupid, time just goes too slow sometimes!. But at this point my believe is "I was listening what I wanted to listen and not what it was said to me not only in words, but in behaviour, reactions, actions,excuses,etc", and at the end , this life is only one, and is time for me to focus on what matters and be happy with what I DO have, forget, forgive and go back to recover what I can.

Its so exciting to have an online and offline life here, to walk around this georgous city, to feel free, anxious, happy and calm. To dream to hope to live, to suffer, to cry, to smile, to jump, to run, to play, to meditate, to write, to study, to chat, to pray... I am alive and that is what matters.

Now I completely understand when people say "I just feel there is no time for all what I need to do", so I decided to " do only what I WANT to do, is the only thing i have time for"

Welcome new friends, new dreams ..... new love!

Good night!

sábado, 9 de octubre de 2010

...Falling in love...


Dear Diary:

I am back.. these days have been wonderful, full of so many different and interesting people, ful of energy, enthusiasm and life, however I am still feeling weird it maybe because of the stress I ve been through these month, changing of life, making nuts decisions and realizing that I am , I was and I will be in the same position in people¨s life .. that kind a confuse me I am not very sure whether I am happy or sad for it, and by that I mean I am happy coz I am able to follow my life, my way, my path withouth worrying for the ... "maybe one day" dream that I was kind a stock for some time now , but on the other hand I am sad because I misunderstood everything and I am afraid that with that idea I have pushed myself in to a decision that was not the time to do.

Life is absolutely wonderful, full of dreams, life, problems, solutions, ideas and feelings,I love this place, the power it has, the energy that everyone can transmit, the opportunities, the failures, the HOPE, is a city with HOPE and it makes me calm, smile, focus on the future and live!..

I have enrolled in many clubs at the University, and I am very excited, at the Consulting Club I wil meet guys from the MBA and they are my age so that will be very cool! @ the music club I will meet people that are so different from me that makes me wonder and Tarek will be the president so that will make it fun!, @ the soccer club, Ill get to practice my english with the snobish american girls and I may get to learn how to play better, @ the Language exchange I may get to practice my italina, and @ the yoga club I may get classes for free.. so the future looks wonderful and I am happy to be here! .. Diary hold fingers for me to get another credit!

Good night